old friend.

yesterday i met an old friend. several things went wrong during our friendship and we both made some wrong decisions. he was ashamed of his behaviour and i was too proud to admit anything. things just went wrong. so we did not have any contact for a long time. but yesterday showed me that sometimes you ruin everything by not taking a chance. by being too proud, by being afraid of the reactions, by simply doing nothing and hoping the other person will do everything. thats not how it works, apparantly. sometimes we realize these things when the other person is not there anymore and we start to miss them, sometimes we see this when we meet the other person again after a long time and see why we were so close and sometimes we don't see a difference at all, which shows there was never really a connection of some sort. i feel kind of relieved now. but still this confrontation and these apologies mixed up my feelings. i feel unsure. and i think he is, too.

xoxo.

colourful.

i feel bubbly today and i don't know what happened. it wasn't a special day and nothing special really happened. just another boring day. but i simply feel relieved. like i got rid of something that i've been carrying around with me for such a long time. all of a sudden this bundle is gone and i can breathe again. it feels so wonderful. it feels like walking through a tunnel for such a long time and suddenly seeing light ahead. the end of the tunnel is there, right in front of you. all you have to do is take one more step. and i feel like i made this step today. i have left my cold and dark tunnel behind me and am now in the sunlight once again. i feel like i'm bursting with colours; pink, purple, red, yellow, green. positive and optimistic colours.

xoxo.

“don't forget your history nor your destiny.”

at times like this, when the sun doesn't want to shine, i long for summer. when the rivers are frozen, i long for the sea. when the forests turn into winter wonderlands, i long for the beach. when the cold makes everyone feel exhausted and weary, i miss the positive feeling that makes you smile for no reason. i long for jamaica. but in 10 days i won't have to long for any of that anymore.:)

xoxo.

oh, the quote used in my title is from no other than the famous bob marley, of course. ;)

xoxo.

letting go.

letting something or someone go is probably one of the most difficult things in life. but, you can't change the fact that there are some things that you simply have to let go, in order to move on and live your life. it is hard for me to accept this at times but i have come to see that at some point in life things just have to end and we should let it end peacefully, so we can cherish memories. if we hold on to something, just for the sake of it, it makes no sense. things that are meant to be will stay, things that are meant to end will end, if we like it or not. life is bitter-sweet.

xoxo.

decision made.

so, i finally decided to create my own blog. first off why? well, i'm not too sure i can answer that question, without sounding confused. i just wanted to express my feelings, emotions and show what i get to experience. I'll mostly post photographs, texts, some songs; things that fit my life situation.


oh well, enough said, i hope you'll like some of the things you get to see and find them fairly interesting.


xoxo.