my path.

i am still so unsure about myself. my mind is not yet set. it makes me feel uneasy at times. i am young and callow. i am wild and not yet tamed. i am free and searching. at least i am for now. i am slowly finding my path. my way through life. but will this path lead to happiness and contentment? or will i end up with nothing? it is so difficult to set my mind knowing that what i decide now will affect me in the long run. it will furthermore stone my path. that makes me feel nervous. it makes me stay awake at night wondering what the right decision is. wondering what would happen if i chose plan x or plan y. -how do i know which one is the right one for me? wondering if i am the only one who has these difficulties. right now i feel as if i have reached a dead end and i have to find my way back out. find my way out of this maze called life, and back to my path, back to where i should be.

xoxo.

apologies and something new.

i apologize for my absence. but I flew to jamaica on the 4th to do an internship at a hotel and currently i am in entertainment, and it is a tough business. you practically have no spare time at all nor sleep but you have to be all smiley faced the entire time. as i said, tough. so i don’t have that much time to write. as i said before i apologize. thankfully i am only in entertainment till saturday. after that i will have more regulated working hours, and not a 14 hour day. oh well, even though i haven’t had that much time, i did have time to take a few shots in my garden. and being here again simply shows me that this is such a beautiful island. it makes me feel special. it makes me feel free. it makes my heart do a summersault. it simply makes me feel like me.

xoxo.

the greatest gift.

i often miss not having my bestfriend around me all the time. not being able to call her whenever i please, not being able to go out together every week-end or not being able to just walk through the city every day for no particular reason. it makes me sad at times and i sometimes fear that we'll change into totally different people. but luckily time has shown me that true friendship grows even over the longest distances and is the greatest gift.

xoxo.